Tues Sept 29: Feels like not much is going right. I very much expected to have a few days of rest and relaxation while unpacking at the apartment, but it seems like I can't get a win lately. It might be my hormones, too. It just feels like everything I try goes wrong, or I keep being interrupted by stressors and annoyances. I should be so happy! Noise from upstairs neighbors by day, noise from next door neighbors by night, emails requesting documents, emails scheduling interviews, discovering things missing or damaged from the move, constant phone calls, no access to previous coping mechanisms... I tried to buy myself a post-move reward of craft supplies that had been in my online shopping cart, and now I think my account is flagged for buying a large order shipped to a new address. Snacks are tasteless and I can't pay attention to shows I like. And I don't like existing just to complain. There is SO MUCH TO DO, but I want to enjoy myself a bit before I get back to the grind and am finding it impossible.

Sat Sept 26: Long day, very tired! It was a wonderful time at an expo for oddities and curiosities, and I was able to see several people maybe for the last time, at least for a long while. My flight is tomorrow! I feel very strange as it has taken months and months to get to this point; I am slow at all things but especially packing and cleaning etc. I have a few suitcases to pack and then I will be off to the airport! I am sad and happy, anxious and excited at once.

Wed Sept 23: House listing goes up tomorrow! I feel nothing lol. Still staying with a friend, trying to stay out of the way. I updated the site by moving all the buttons to the sidebars and adding some irridescent snake pixel art backgrounds of my own creation behind the buttons. I also added a button of my own for the Good Internet. Slowly but surely I will fill it with my own art! I began organizing the dollz on a page dedicated to them, so eventually they can all be moved there.

Fri Sept 18: Staying with a friend! No more air mattress, for now. She has three cats so I have a lot of emotional support. Hopefully the house listing goes well and I can get to my destination soon enough.
I would like to reformat the page a bit, and format Leon's page, so I apologize if this doesn't look quite right for a bit. The personal blogs and sites section is getting extremely long, so I may move the buttons to the sidebars where the dolls are. There are too many of them already. I want to decide whether it should be all buttons, if they should be sorted somehow, if there should be some dolls left, etc.

Wed Sep 16: I think I am allergic to gelatin. I usually never consume it because it isn't vegan, but due to stress I haven't been checking labels as carefully or putting pressure on myself to be perfect. Call it a vegetarian lapse- I will resume my preferred diet when I move. However, I ate some pop tarts with gelatin and felt like I was getting very sick for two days. The same thing happened when I had multivitamins with gelatin. I still find it difficult to accept that it was the cause due to gelatin allergy/sensitivity being so rare, but I may have induced it with years of veganism following years of vegetarianism. Or, I never knew I had it because of my diet. Regardless, my body is feeling a bit better after sticking to veg food with fewer ingredients, and I am getting back to my usual levels of background abdominal discomfort and joint pain.
In the meantime, I made a button for myself!! I used the app Pixsquare on my iPad to make it, along with the icon of my cat, Leon. His pet page is an unformatted photo dump for now.

Tues Sept 14: Recruiter chat went well; I don't think I have the exact background they are looking for, but I was honest, so if they have a genuine interest I will speak to a hiring manager next. I don't know enough about the specific project to be excited yet; the most interesting thing is that it would allow me to move overseas for the first time. I now have the rest of the day to do as I please. I've added a link the the previous updates I post here, it is just a text dump.
Edit: Part two... I feel quite bad today. Pain flareup, my joints feel bad, headache and abdominal pain that comes and goes, brain fog and strange sensations like I am falling in place. Like slowly descending inside myself. If anyone has this same thing, let me know lol

Mon Sept 14: I should be boxing up donations and preparing for the recruiter chat tomorrow morning, but I am so tired! I looked into ways to inspect pages on iOS, and found a bookmark hack here. It works okay for what I need. It looks like there are also apps to help as options but I have not yet tried any.
PetraPixel added a widget section, so I am inspired to try to host the calendar widget and edit it!

Sun Sept 13: Went out today with a friend for ramen and groceries, it is good to get out of the house! But then I was tired and had to lay down for the rest of the day. Watched some Uprooted (rpg play VODs). I did finally make a TamaNOTchi, actually two (below)! I also added cbox chat (near bottom of page).

Thurs Sept 10: Still living out of my suitcase but feeling a bit closer to finally moving. I have a donation of my extra things scheduled for next Tuesday and a chat with a recruiter that day as well. In the meantime I have to find ways to busy myself without access to a computer or most of my belongings, and without spending any money or acquiring anything. I have been working on a pixel art animation of a shining trophy, I would like to personalize it to "give" to sites that have really inspired me. I enjoy some parts of it, but animating moving highlights on really skinny sections is a bore. Any suggestions and constructive criticism (specific and actionable) for the website are highly welcome!

Tuesday Sept 8: I am moving cross-country, and I already moved my computer, so all I have with me now is an air mattress and what can fit into a suitcase. Usually my creative outlet is making something on my desktop, or with crafting supplies, but those are also already at my destination, so making this website on an ipad has been my only outlet for weeks. I only had three followers, but noticed today that it went back to two... maybe I update too often, and it is annoying? Maybe link collections are not useful? Maybe the huge amounts of images are just too much, maybe there is not enough original content yet... I shouldn't dwell on it. Every time I come back here, it is time well spent for my own good.